Few ways you can express how you feel towards someone;
1. I love you. 2. I need you. 3. I want you. 4. I want to be with you. 5. I don’t want to be without you. 6. I can’t live without you. 7. I miss you.
NEED, needs can be met somewhere else & being needy means being weak as well. LOVE, this word is highly misused by people & especially someone like me needs a year to trust after a year of healing. WANT is my favourite & number-3 is my pick out of all these 7. WANT is that animalistic desire inside. Which means i know i have few suitors/options, but who cares because it’s you and just you that i WANT for myself. In case you love someone, remind them constantly & consistently that YOU WANT THEM.
Last time someone said “I WANT YOU” to me was on my birthday. I haven’t replied that till now. Never rushed towards anyone. Never allowed anyone to rush towards me either. The simple reason is; “If someone is investing their time & energy on me, that person deserves a whole TAP”. I am that kind of a person who hides nothing. My only secrets are my bank account/credit card pin or my email/social media account passwords. And right now, i am still in that phase of healing i mentioned above.
Whenever i say “LIONESS” in my posts, it’s my appreciation to that person who understands where i am coming from & why. Appreciated for picking/dropping me at airport. Appreciated for taking me out to my favourite brunch. Appreciated for buying me a pair of white vans kicks after watching squid games. Appreciated for helping me with carwash. Appreciated for typing my thesis. Very few people come with a clean heart & no stupid outlandish expectations. So LIONESS, Like your favourite alphabet is T, my favourite word is “APPRECIATION”. Rest all are a LEO-LEO thing i guess.😜 Every relationship of your life is a major investment of time & energy. Take your sweet time, that says all about who’s who.
You have to chase the things that ignite you. You have to do the things that bring you joy. You have to surround yourself with the people who bring you back home to yourself, with the people who respect you and embrace you in ways that make you feel like you are worthy and accepted and celebrated and loved. You have do the work to heal yourself, even when it hurts especially when it hurts, so that you do not continue to approach your life within the boundary of what is heavy within you. You have to put yourself out there, and you cannot worry about what other people think, you cannot rob yourself of experience or happiness or inspiration because you are scared of how you will be perceived. You have to be unapologetic in the way that you exist here. You have to believe that your ideas, and your hope, and your being, deserve to take up space. You have to believe that you have purpose.
Because our existence is finite. And as hard as that is to understand, as hard as that can be to connect with, from time to time remind yourself that in the most human way we are all living on borrowed time. We live as if we are promised the experiences and the potential we are chasing, we live as if we have control over what happens to us. But we don’t, and that is liberating, because it is pressing there is urgency within the lesson. It is meant to wake you up. Life is meant to be lived. (Not my words).
In LOVE, I have been elated and brokenhearted and felt every emotion in between. As I’ve gotten older I’ve learned to embrace the painful parts, because I realize they make me stronger and they are just parts of life. It hurts to power through the rough times but just like a muscle, it must be exercised before it’s able to become stronger.
Think about a specific painful moment in your life, and then think about how that feeling didn’t last forever even though you thought it would. Remember that life will continue to go on and time really does heal all wounds. I’m grateful for all the love and all the heartache I’ve experienced in my life. Both have been equally wonderful.
I don’t know what “LOOKING COOL” means. The coolest guy of my high school works as a car garage mechanic now a days.
No matter how much it hurts, keep pushing yourself towards positive changes. You will heal amazingly & reach places you never been. Learn new things & exit your comfort zone. That’s how you REMAIN COOL & CONFIDENT.
Just because I allow, stop asking shit about my past. I was badly madly in LOVE once, just once. I did that mistake. I escaped it after a huge struggle inside my own head/heart. I am the one who ended it just for ending it. It was a toxic vicious cycle. That relationship taught me; I am a way better person being single & my TRUTH is my treasure. By breaking free, I honestly walked towards my happiness. If you know me; I still mourn my dog’s demise, two days after that date I celebrate someone’s death. It made me heartless, tough & rational. I used to take long time trusting people, now I have trust issues.
I hope I answered it truthfully. It will be much better if you stop asking me about something I wanna heal & halt.
Whenever you think a relationship isn’t working; talk about it to your partner. If it still looks impossible to make it, get a closure. Heal your heart, remove all negativity that your other person left inside you. People heal with their own sweet time, it may take 3-4 months to some & some people need years. Remove all those memories whatever you had. Then think about allowing another person to come close. That’s how you enter or leave relationships.
Falling in LOVE with someone is easy. Saying those 3 bullshit words are even more easy. Keeping those promises you made takes a lifetime to fulfill.