Forgive yourself for the desires you judged harshly. Forgive yourself for indulging in things that took up your time but didn’t fulfill you. Forgive yourself for declaring yourself as someone you’re not. Forgive yourself for your chosen avenues of negative expression. Forgive yourself for all the times you didn’t add value to others. Forgive yourself for what you discovered about yourself that you didn’t like. Forgive yourself for whatever ugliness you saw in yourself. Forgive yourself for not correcting what you think you should have. Forgive yourself for the parts you couldn’t respect. Forgive yourself for all these judgements. Forgive yourself for not being able to forgive yourself before. Forgive yourself for how you chose to survive. Foregiveness is making a conscious decision to live in the present, even if the past still hurts.
(This paragraph got nothing to do with the post above. Everything that’s real takes longer to build, the longer it stands & the longer it takes to break. Chrissi you dumb girl, keep on forgiving TAP. I can’t accept your gift till next year. Let me fix myself first, right now i am the wrong one. Doors to my house are open for my people every Saturday, please join. Love outta respect. Truth is trust.)
When i say “I AM SOLD TO MY DESIRES & MY DESIRES ARE MY PURPOSE”, few friends always misunderstand my words. But i can get you, DESIRE as a word is heavily miscalculated. Be calm, just sit down once for a while & have a heart to heart conversation with yourself about what kind of life you want. Then you can logically figure out what are your dreams, goals & desires. That’s a huge relaxation to our humanly problems.
Amazing things happen when you get honest with yourself and start doing what you love, what makes you happy. Your life literally slows down. You stop wishing for the weekend. You stop merely looking forward to special events. You begin to live in each moment and you start feeling like a human being. You just ride with what is life, a feeling of contentment and joy. You move fluidly, steadily, calm and grateful. A veil is lifted, and a whole new perspective is born. LIVE TO FETCH YOUR PURPOSE. LIFE IS FUN, LET IT BE.
You can’t let people scare you. You can’t go your whole life trying to please everyone else. You can’t go through life worried about what everyone else is going to think. Whether it’s your hair, clothes, what you have to say, how you feel, what you believe and what you have, you can’t let the judgment of others stop you from being you. Because if you do, you’re no longer you. You’re someone everyone else wants you to be. It’s just a waste of your precious time because you aren’t getting this life again.
DO WHAT YOUR HEART DESIRES & HEAD PERMITS. BE YOURSELF.
So it’s valentine’s day today & even though i don’t believe in such bullshit, i am still writing a tiny post to elaborate my opinion on this nonsense. Have you ever seen a kid who’s super excited for christmas!?! You must have seen, 99% kids are like that. And then there is rest 1% weird type of 4 year old kids who say “SANTA IS FAKE”. The second weird one’s parents already know their kid will definitely become a engineer/doctor/scientist someday. Now i am coming back to topic of valentine’s day. Just like SANTA CLAUS was marketed by rich newyorkers as the face of CHRISTMAS, Valentine’s day is another such gimmick which exists in our society as if it’s a ritual. And yes i don’t believe in it.
What bugs me the most is this question; “TAP, WHAT’S YOUR TYPE!!”. Almost all girls i know in my university have asked this question to me. Some have asked out of curiosity, some asked for romantic reasons. My answer is; I don’t have any type. I don’t have certain set of criterias to pick a girl whom i wanna date. The reason behind it is; i never wanted a girl just because i want a relationship, but I definitely want a relationship if i want someone specific. I am hella slow in such matters. I love taking my sweet time. Still pretty much in love with my bank account. But soon or sooner i definitely want to belong to the one whom i am sold to. Very few of my friends know whom i am mentioning when i say ZK, It’s still a work in progress. A truthful consistent person is the burning desire, that’s all & that’s enough. For those who believe; Happy valentine’s day.
Most of the time we humans hold ourselves back from pursuing our dreams because we care about the people who hurt us & moreover we consider their words in a negative emotional way. Let me talk about both and why so!!
How many times you thought “My dreams are impossible!!”. If your goals/dreams are practical/realistic enough to be pursued, never give up on them. It’s only you who knows own strengths & weaknesses. Don’t let someone else’s negative experience stop you from going after what you want. Follow your heart and take risks, don’t stick with the safe and easy choices just because you’re afraid of taking a leap of faith. Your dreams are not impossible and they should be bigger than your fears. Sticking to your vision will eventually beat to progress and yield the results you desire.
Sometimes we do feel “I am stuck with people who hurt me”. Never entertain those who walk over your sanity. Your life is precious and too short not to look out for yourself. Have enough self-respect & self-love to distance yourself from those who constantly mistreat you and bring you down. It may be tough and hurt for a while but everything will be ok, more importantly you’ll be ok. Walking away from a bad situation doesn’t make you weak, it makes you strong. Leaving means acknowledging that it’s not about them seeing your worth, but you realizing your own worth.