Few ways you can express how you feel towards someone;
1. I love you. 2. I need you. 3. I want you. 4. I want to be with you. 5. I don’t want to be without you. 6. I can’t live without you. 7. I miss you.
NEED, needs can be met somewhere else & being needy means being weak as well. LOVE, this word is highly misused by people & especially someone like me needs a year to trust after a year of healing. WANT is my favourite & number-3 is my pick out of all these 7. WANT is that animalistic desire inside. Which means i know i have few suitors/options, but who cares because it’s you and just you that i WANT for myself. In case you love someone, remind them constantly & consistently that YOU WANT THEM.
Last time someone said “I WANT YOU” to me was on my birthday. I haven’t replied that till now. Never rushed towards anyone. Never allowed anyone to rush towards me either. The simple reason is; “If someone is investing their time & energy on me, that person deserves a whole TAP”. I am that kind of a person who hides nothing. My only secrets are my bank account/credit card pin or my email/social media account passwords. And right now, i am still in that phase of healing i mentioned above.
Whenever i say “LIONESS” in my posts, it’s my appreciation to that person who understands where i am coming from & why. Appreciated for picking/dropping me at airport. Appreciated for taking me out to my favourite brunch. Appreciated for buying me a pair of white vans kicks after watching squid games. Appreciated for helping me with carwash. Appreciated for typing my thesis. Very few people come with a clean heart & no stupid outlandish expectations. So LIONESS, Like your favourite alphabet is T, my favourite word is “APPRECIATION”. Rest all are a LEO-LEO thing i guess.😜 Every relationship of your life is a major investment of time & energy. Take your sweet time, that says all about who’s who.
I like meeting new people, it’s fun but i hardly take them seriously. Let’s say I like meeting new people, but i don’t like making new friends. Most people are inconsistent+liars which bums my mood, that’s just cheap in my eyes and i struggle to trust such morons. I already have little over a dozen amazing friends who are my friends since 14th century or past life. That’s the reason I never miss attention or affection. Remember: The only proof your people are real with you is whether they are consistent with their approach towards you. Rest others are there just for nothing – mental drain to be honest.
(Not a secret, i shoot my shots when she’s a peng ting. That’s the best part about being single.😜 There’s a party at Frank’s place next week. Shooting this song at my bestie DEMI, Amanda & Karo’s🍑.)
Next few lines are meant for the one who calls me SONNENPRINZ out of fun & adore. Sonnenprinz means SUN PRINCE in German. Meeting someone 7th time in 6 years, actually 4th time since May-2021. She drives 5 hours to drop me at airport & airport is just 30km away from my house.😂 I must agree that 45-minute drive from my house to airport is pure banter. I still don’t know what i am bringing to the table, but the vibe is 🔥🔥🔥🔥. I love it when a girl questions or corrects my knowledge on engineering & business. Basically i love it when someone proves me wrong. Conversations are healing & communication is a sexy thing.
Ha Ha. Same person bro, I am the same Tap as I used to be. Pardon me, if you got some overpowering vibe. Dreams & desires are going bigger in me, so is my power. All TRUTH & no fear; both these are making me weirdly mysterious & optimistic too. I feel all changes in me. But they all are pointing towards only one thing; I LEVELLED UP. You know, I am a sucker for finance & happiness.
Matt, I don’t write posts for specific people now a days. You are one of those who stood by me without expecting anything in return. Sometimes I feel blessed to experience friendships the best way possible. Always bros above hoes. Thanks for the see off, appreciated.